[ Letting Bucky go is the hardest thing Steve ever had to do; it's almost broken his heart when Bucky had come up with the idea of moving in on his own, when he extricates himself from Steve's apartment and decides that being separate is best. Objectively, he knows that this is good, that he's recovering and regaining his own sense of self and ownership and that he should never get in the way of that.
But emotionally, emotionally; Steve feels abandoned, unhappy in ways that feel more vivid when he wakes up and Bucky's not there, when he takes to haunting his own apartment all over again, remembering Bucky's presence, the way he makes him happier just by being there.
Bucky needs this, he thinks. He needs his space and Steve will give it to him; and so he visits him often (not too often to be suffocating), and he's smiling when he brings over a basket of fruit and groceries for him. He misses Bucky, he misses him so much that it aches. ]
Hey. [ He greets him warmly, thinks that Bucky's adorable when he's newly awake. He looks happier now, Steve notes; more relaxed, more himself. ] Did I interrupt your nap? Sorry.
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But emotionally, emotionally; Steve feels abandoned, unhappy in ways that feel more vivid when he wakes up and Bucky's not there, when he takes to haunting his own apartment all over again, remembering Bucky's presence, the way he makes him happier just by being there.
Bucky needs this, he thinks. He needs his space and Steve will give it to him; and so he visits him often (not too often to be suffocating), and he's smiling when he brings over a basket of fruit and groceries for him. He misses Bucky, he misses him so much that it aches. ]
Hey. [ He greets him warmly, thinks that Bucky's adorable when he's newly awake. He looks happier now, Steve notes; more relaxed, more himself. ] Did I interrupt your nap? Sorry.